April 2011
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Long time gone
So, it’s been a LONG time since I’ve been on here. xD
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who are your best friends and why?
Ocean Springs best friends
Jordan Bell because despite all the fights we’ll always stay friends. I love everything about her.
Naomi Page because she’ll always be there for me no matter what happens.
Christine Miller, she’s amazing to be around.
Brittany Lowery, she helped me fine God.
Mary Rogers, she’s helping me stay with God. She’s also very loyal and...
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March 2010
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What is your favorite song to play on the flute?
This year it’s Free Spirit Overture.
Last year was Summon the Heroes.
Ask me anything
So?
I guess I like this house. It’s quite nice.
I’ve got a story to tell.
Okay, sooo, I rode with my dad. Guess what he wanted me to do? He wanted me to drive from the old house to the new one. Well, I couldn’t do that because of Washington. It’s a very busy highway. So, we’re at the new house. The movers get done; they leave. My dad was like, “We need to...
I was talking to Alex,
and I told her.
“Alex, I need to tell you something. Sitting next to Will all I could think about is a future with him. I have never felt that way about Sean, Chaz, or Josh. Is that normal?”
Alex reply was, “Awwwwwwwww, Kristen. I know the feeling. I have the same feeling with ____. You really like Will. You need to take a chance with him. Get to know him more, do stuff...
You take my hand,
and drive me head first, fearless.
That’s exactly what he did. He took my hand last night, and for once I could feel how much he cared. He was so easy to talk to, and the best part is how fast I got over Josh. Will sitting next to me was like the best part of my night. He made the moves not me. I hate when the guy doesn’t make the first move. My head on his shoulder. His head...
This is just a dream.
Truth is, this isn’t a dream.
I’m so tired of hurting. I’ve been let down so many times. My parents thought about another divorce. Me hearing that just kills me. I have no hope. The killer part is I’m the only one that knows! Johnathon doesn’t live here anymore, and Amber is turning seven. I’m sixteen. I know everything. I understand everything. I...
I hate moving.
I’m so sick and tired of moving. I wish I could just stay in one freaking place. I prefer to stay in Ocean Springs. My hands and feet hurt from moving boxes, packing boxes, and unpacking boxes. Ugh, talk about Spring cleaning.
I'm in trouble. I'm an addict
I’m addicted to this boy. He’s got my heart tied in a knot, and my stomach in a whirl. But even worse, I can’t stop calling him. He’s all I want and more. I mean dang. What’s not to adore?
I love Trouble by NeverShoutNever.
It’s like mine and Alex’s song. She sings it all the time in band, and I’ll sing the song with her. If Alex really...
P.s. If this is ______
I still love you.
Today, during forth period, band, I went to the bathroom. I used the bathroom, and then I wash my hands. As I was drying my hands, this mentally challenged girl asked me what my name was. I told her my name, and she said, “Hi” to me. She walked off before I could ask her what her name was.
She got me thinking, “Why are some people so mean to mentally...
Today....
I just wanted to scream. I’m getting so sick of St. Martin people calling me a whore. I’m not a freakin’ whore. I’m not a slut either for those who call me a slut. Then again, there’s a lot more on my mind.
I just want to scream.
I think I’ll just praise God instead of screaming at nothing.
It is writen "Christ is risen"
This weekend has been an amazing weekend. Friday and Saturday was great. I got to spend time with four amazing friends. I wished Aleia had went though. Sunday, was a roller coaster for me. Before and during church was great. I got home and it was terrible. Then I went to evening service and it was good. I wonder what tomorrow has in store.
February 2010
40 posts
Kristen, the dreamer,
and you, the dream.
I just remembered that I have band contest next week and the following week. We’re not ready. I don’t like band here. I miss Ocean Springs. I miss Aleia, Jordan, all my flute buddies. I miss everyone. I hate it here.
I dread waking up to go to school. I get to school, and I can’t stand it. I feel like a zombie at school. I’m the living dead...
This is a story of a girl,
who cried a river and drowned the whole world.
I always wonder why, I wonder, “Why?”
I think way too much.
I need to quit thinking, or at least think about important things.
I don’t want to hurt him. I love him, and I don’t feel right with him. Thank you, Aleia, for helping me. You’re right, I’m going to have to do it. I just don’t feel right hurting my best friend.
Josh, is my only best friend here. Sure, there’s Sunny, Alex, Ambrelyn, and other band...
Take me all the way.
I love church. I loved church today. I talked to Christian today, and he said he’s going to talk to Dr. Mike about getting me baptized on the twenty-eighth of February. As I was talking to him, he handed me a Student Survival Kit: An Essential Guide for New Christians by Ralph W. Neighbour, Jr. I’m going to read it right now.
I don’t want to go through the motions.
Is wild at heart.
It’s almost seven o’clock. I’m pumped for today. Rehearsal is at eight-thirty. Then after all of the band stuff I get to come home and get ready to go see Grease! Life can’t get any better than it already is. Well, it could get better, but I’m fine with the way life is now. Man, I know someone is going to try and ruin my wonderful mood. Go ahead and try.
I love Christine and Naomi.
So, I’m on facebook. I read Naomi’s status about being at Christine’s house. I comment. The next thing I know, Naomi said that Christine killed my boyfriend. Sims style.
I messaged Christine. I was like, “So, I hear you killed my boyfriend.” Here’s what she said,
“No, I tried to grill hot dogs, but, next thing i knew the grill was on fire. Then...
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better.
That is so true. I love Keith Urban.
Anyways, I’m so excited for the weekend. I get to miss half of school for Pearl River Band clinic. The sad part is, I’m going, but Alex isn’t going. I love Alex. I hope Amberlyn goes. That way I won’t be the only girl there.
Oh great, I need to practice my scales and chromatic! Crap.
I want to go to the seven o’clock...
I love you,
now go take your shower.
Haha, I love Mikayla. Just I wish she could understand what “he” is trying to tell her. It’s very obvious, but she thinks no guy cares about her. That’s not true at all.
Everyone cares. Everyone shows they care in different ways. I’ve learn to deal with that. Some people can’t show it a lot of the time. I’ve learn to deal...
I'm feeling very artistic.
I’m running out of things to draw. I’ve drawn cats, dogs, lions, tigers, bears(Oh My!), wolves, dolphins, and just about everything I can think of. I’m running out of ideas.
Any ideas?
She writes songs for the same reason
I draw things.
When you write poems, songs, stories, or draw, color, paint. It’s all the same. You do it to let out emotion.
Brittany wrote a song out of the conflict of our friendship. It was so beautiful reading it. I told her that I was going to save it, but I’m not going to post it. I told her I don’t want anyone stealing something like that.
I’m done drawing...
When someone invites you
livinginthedaysahead:
guitarangel109:
livinginthedaysahead:
to something, and you haven’t seen them in two months, and have only talked to them twice in that period of time. YOU ACCEPT! Especially when they offer to buy your ticket, and they invited you to this thing a MONTH AGO! Because last time you said you didn’t have enough notice.
Does our friendship mean nothing to you?
Screw...
When someone invites you
livinginthedaysahead:
to something, and you haven’t seen them in two months, and have only talked to them twice in that period of time. YOU ACCEPT! Especially when they offer to buy your ticket, and they invited you to this thing a MONTH AGO! Because last time you said you didn’t have enough notice.
Does our friendship mean nothing to you?
Screw this.
What’s going on Mary????
I lost the game,
and I hate losing the game.
UGH!
I just want to scream! I can’t though. I don’t want anyone in my family to know I have a problem. They never care when I do. I keep to myself most the time, and they think I’m doing stuff I shouldn’t. When I actually talk they’re like, “Drama, drama, drama, grow up.” What the heck can I do?
Nothing, absolutely, positively nothing.
So, um,
this book is really good. However, I keep getting confused. Like, I understand for a couple of pages, and then I get confused about it. I keep having to reread it which is why I take forever reading a book. I get confused and have to reread it. That, and I’m a very distracted person. The laptop is very distracting. My cat is extremely distracting. My family is very distracting in...
Here I go again.
I’m breaking my promise. I’m starting to become disgusted with myself. I keep hurting Brittany, but I’m not only hurting Brittany. I also keep getting into arguments with Jordan.
I really need to stop. I thought about things I could do to stop it, but all of those ideas are completely and utterly stupid. I’m tired of hurting or annoying friends.
Normally, I keep...
I laughed.
I was talking to Mikayla about friendships, and I couldn’t help laugh when she said, “Kristen, you’ve got answers for everything, and I’ve got excuses for everything”
I told her, “It’s not that I have answers for everything. Friendships are just a topic I can relate to.” Sad part is, I’m too gosh dang subborn to take my own advice.
“Two roads diverged in the middle of my life, I heard a wise man say I took the...”
– Larry Norman(with apologies to Robert Frost.)
Wished we didn't get this house.
The house is nice and all, but it’s not in Ocean Springs. I hate it here in St. Martin. I wish my parents realized that. I hate it here. I just don’t fit in.
On the plus side, Mary told me to read this book called, “The Shack.” It’s really sad in chapter four. I cried until I got up to chapter five. Now, I’m reading through chapter five.
You may think that I'm talking foolish.
I am. There is no denial to that.
Okay, so Pearl River band clinic is next weekend. The same days as Grease. I was told it was four hours away from here. Great, that means I can’t go to the Friday or Saturday show. There is still the Sunday show.
I'm not perfect.
I am not a perfect daughter, (best) friend, or girlfriend. That’s okay. I don’t want to be perfect. I make mistakes. I often learn from a lot of them. Some I learn from other’s mistakes, but still end up making their mistakes. I’m sorry I’m not perfect. If you’re looking for a perfect daughter, (best) friend, or girlfriend I can’t help you.
I’m...
Okay, I'm sorry.
My sister was having me do a maze then she had me do a, “How many words can you make using the letters in Holiday Bells?”
Hill
Sled
Holly
Day
Bell
Holy
Hide
Lady
Ladies
Bed
Load
Daily
Lid
slide
silly
I frowned when I wrote down, “Bell.” On the plus side, my sister gave me a 100 for finishing it. That’s the easiest 100 I’ll ever get. I think...
This is freaking hard.
I’m trying to do this Christmas Maze, and I can’t make it to the end. On top of that I’m disgusted with myself.
I just realized how retarded I am.
Despite the lies that you're making,
your love is mine for the taking.
Today, yesterday, and Friday just aren’t going so well. It’s mostly friend issues, but I also have more things on my mind.
Today, I was okay for the most part. I was happy my dad made it back from a funeral in Lafayette, Louisiana. Then he told me about the funeral, and he showed me of this beautiful lady that died. It was sad what he was...
It's always a little kid.
I was watching New Moon on the computer, and it was the part where he was at Italy about to expose himself. Well, it was a little kid that looked over. It’s always a little kid when something weird happens. “Mommy, Mommy, look.” *Tugs on sleeve of shirt* “Mommy look” That’s what happens all the time. I just found that funny.
How can you hate someone who has helped you so...
That’s a question I tend to ask myself a lot. I see a lot of people who used to be the best of friends, and now they hate each other with all their guts. How can you hate them?
I can’t seem to do that. I’ve been hurt, betrayed, hated by friends, but I don’t hate any of them. In fact, I love them more.
I just want YOU to know,
I am sorry.
and
I love you.
I love you more today
than yesterday
and half as much tomorrow.
When the world pushes you to your knees,
you are in a perfect position to pray.
I pray that things work out between Brittany and I. We’re both lost and confused in our friendship.
I’ve been through something like this before with another friend. The thing is, that friend and I are best friends now.
Brittany and I aren’t sure what’s going to happen. However, we both know God is here for us both.
Brittany...
Countdown.
16 more days until I turn 16.
Then a month and a half until I have to be out of this house.
How lovely. I’m so tired from packing. It better snow tomorrow. I’m going to cry if it doesn’t. Well, maybe I won’t cry, but I’ll be sad. I love the cold, rain, and snow weathers. Even though, I’ve only seen snow about three times out of my whole life.
I don't want you hurt.
Especially over a guy.
Alex,
I love her to death. She’s one friend here worth having. She’s the only one that I have opened up to here. I wish she gave herself more credit than she gives herself. She’s such a beautiful young teenager.
She remains me a little of Jordan.
I love them both.
Today should have been a great day!
My day was great until I got home. So, we’ve got a month and a half to get out of this house, and in another house by April 1st. I need to start packing.
i'm dating my ex again.
jordanisthebeat:
I think he’s the reason I wasn’t quite living.
Which ex? TJ?
Supernatural
Is a freaky show. I’m going to have nightmares for a couple of days. I’m surprised Brittany and Sunny watched this. This is one thing I never thought they’d watch.
I'm so tired of
not knowing what’s wrong.