Is the dreamer, and you, are the dream.

So, it’s been a LONG time since I’ve been on here.  xD

Ocean Springs best friends

Jordan Bell because despite all the fights we’ll always stay friends. I love everything about her.

Naomi Page because she’ll always be there for me no matter what happens.

Christine Miller, she’s amazing to be around.

Brittany Lowery, she helped me fine God.

Mary Rogers, she’s helping me stay with God. She’s also very loyal and trustworthy.

My cousin, Ashley Hall, is also my best friend. We’re just alike in so many ways. We make friends with the same kind of people. I love her to death.

St. Martin best friends.
Alex Carrasco. Ah, Alex. I love her to death. She has always lefted me up during band when I felt sad. She’s the only girl that knows the real me. No one else knows the real me here. She reminds me a lot of Jordan.

Josh Barlow. I love Josh. He was my first best friend here. He understood me in a sense no one else did. He was there when no one else was. He was there when I got my heart broken. I love him.

Sunny Creel is great to talk to at lunch when I’m feeling lonely.

Brittany Thompson. She’s a really sweet Christian. She also makes me smile when I’m feeling sad. We have a lot of inside jokes from lunch.

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This year it’s Free Spirit Overture.
Last year was Summon the Heroes.

Ask me anything

I guess I like this house.  It’s quite nice. 

I’ve got a story to tell.

Okay, sooo, I rode with my dad.  Guess what he wanted me to do? He wanted me to drive from the old house to the new one.  Well, I couldn’t do that because of Washington.  It’s a very busy highway.  So, we’re at the new house.  The movers get done; they leave.  My dad was like, “We need to move my car.”  I was like, “I’ll come with you.”  Him, “No, YOU’RE going to move me car.”  Me, “What the heck?!  You don’t EVER want Johnathon, who has his permit, to drive your car.  Yet, you’ll let me, who hasn’t got the permit, to move your car? ARE YOU CRAZY?!?!?”  Him, “No, see, you’re a pro.  You don’t need a permit.  You got this.”  Okay, so, what’s he do?  The throws the keys to me, and I’m thinking, “What in the heck are you thinking?”  I get in, and I say, “Dad, the sit is too far back.”  Him, “It’s okay, there’s a lever in between your legs under the sit.”  Well, I pull the lever ALL THE WAY up.  He was like, “Is that good enough for you?”  Me, “Dad, it’s ALL the way up.”  Him, “Okay then lets get to rollin’”  The whole time I’m thinking, “I’m going to die!!!” Then my dad was like, “Okay, when I tell you to stop everything take your foot off of EVERYTHING.  Just stop everything you’re doing, but we won’t have to do that because you’re a pro.”  So, he tells me to put it in drive.  Give it alittle gas.  I’m was moving!  OMGosh, I was scared to freakin’ death.  So, I’m in the middle of the road because it’s like a one car type road.  Well, we have a dead end road.  Guess what.  I’ve never seen the rest of the street.  There’s kinda trees that’s blocking the way of the rest of the houses.  I was driving on this road and when we came to the dead end.  I realized I have to put the car in reverse.  This is where, I not only scared myself, but I think I scared my dad, as well.  So, I had to reverse into someone’s driveway WHERE THERE WAS A CAR!!!!!  I’m backing and my dad yelled, “Foot on the brake!”  After telling me to put some gas into it.  I almost hit the little green car.  Then after I got onto the road again.  My dad said, “Okay, Kristen, lets have some fun.  Put some gas to it.”  Haha, I did.  Funny thing is I WAS driving like I’ve drove a car 4805809900000 times.  Then getting the car into the yard, because we don’t exactly have a driveway.  There’s a WHOLE bunch of trees everywhere.  However, I didn’t have ANY problems.  I put the car in park, and my dad was like, “Oh yeah, you’re a pro.  Time to go get your drivers license.”  I was like, “Dad, I’ve got to get the permit first.” 

So, I had a very interesting Friday.

and I told her.

“Alex, I need to tell you something.  Sitting next to Will all I could think about is a future with him.  I have never felt that way about Sean, Chaz, or Josh.  Is that normal?”

Alex reply was, “Awwwwwwwww, Kristen.  I know the feeling.  I have the same feeling with ____.  You really like Will.  You need to take a chance with him.  Get to know him more, do stuff with him.”

“Alex, I’m not a chance taking type of girl when it comes to this.  I’m always scared of getting hurt.”

Her reply, “If you don’t take a chance you’ll always wonder, ‘What if?’ Take the chance Kristen.”

Should I take the chance, or play it on the safe route?

and drive me head first, fearless.

That’s exactly what he did.  He took my hand last night, and for once I could feel how much he cared.  He was so easy to talk to, and the best part is how fast I got over Josh.  Will sitting next to me was like the best part of my night.  He made the moves not me.  I hate when the guy doesn’t make the first move.  My head on his shoulder.  His head on mine.  I was wrapped up in his jacket because mine was too thin, and I was getting really cold.  First, his hand was on my waist.  Towards the end of the ride he reached for both of my hands.  He held me like I really mattered.  I could feel it.
It was indeed a wonderful ride back.  I’m glad he had me forget everything that happened.  All my troubles, worries, and stress went away.

Truth is, this isn’t a dream. 

I’m so tired of hurting.  I’ve been let down so many times.  My parents thought about another divorce.  Me hearing that just kills me.  I have no hope.  The killer part is I’m the only one that knows!  Johnathon doesn’t live here anymore, and Amber is turning seven.  I’m sixteen.  I know everything.  I understand everything.  I hate it.

Sometimes, I wish I never knew.  I wish I never understood.  It kills me to know.  I cried in band today.  I couldn’t hold it in.  I actually broke down in front of people.  The only good this is it was just Alex and Kellie that saw me.  Alex hugged me.  Her hug made everything feel better for me.  I could feel that she really cares.  She said, “Kristen, everything happens for a reason.”  I told her that when she was having a hard day.  She turned it around on me.  That made me laugh.  Kellie, who didn’t know what was going on, just said she understands how I’m feeling. 

Today I realized I have two really caring friends here.  Here, in St. Martin. 

Who would have thought?